Wednesday, November 3, 2004 – 6:57 pm
Anxiety Free? Me? Gee…
So it’s the night before I start my radiation treatment, and I don’t feel anxious at all. In fact, I’m kind of looking forward to it. At least once it’s started it will go forward no matter what. No more waiting, no more new doctors, tests, examinations and periods of unease in between. I’m not worried about the side effects at all, either.
It’s already Wednesday…I thought I’d really make the most of my last week off, but I really haven’t done much with the last 4 months, why start now? It kind of feels like the last week of Summer holidays, when you’re all ready to go back to school and all you can do is wait. Excited, but sad. I’m not saying the last four months have been FUN, necessarily—or that I ever want to repeat them—but it’s been as much fun as it could have been, and I’ll kind of miss it when it’s gone.