Monday, March 22, 2004 – 2:40 pm

Saying Goodbye to Normality

Well it looks like won’t be driving any time soon. I had my heart set on a brand new 2004 Honda Civic SE. I can even afford it, but just barely. The thing holding me back is the fact that I don’t know what’s going to happen to me in the coming weeks. Will I be too sick to work? Will I be just fine? Will I completely collapse? It’s really unnerving, not knowing what’s going to happen to you, and not having any answers to literally hundreds of questions.

I think I’m pretty close to a complete meltdown at this point. I’m about one crisis away from just flat out losing it. I can handle a lot of stress, I’ve always sought out stressful situations because it challenges me to think and act creatively. I work well under pressure, but I think there’s a limit to that, and I may be very close to it. I definately need a dose of warm weather, a few days off to relax, and some answers. All of this, of course, will come with time. Spring will come, I’ll take some time off, and my questions will be addressed. In the meantime, if I appear a little scatterbrained, it’s because I’ve got a lot on my mind.

Take the Nature Challenge

Mood: Shaken, not Stirred