Tuesday, October 12, 2004 – 11:40 pm

There’s Someone Behind the Wheel, but How’s the Engine?

As it’s now been almost 40 days since my last chemo treatment, the effects have started to wear off and my body is returning to it’s regular self. I even have new hair growing! Most of all, I can finally feel my brain starting to kick into gear. My creativity is slowly starting to trickle in. This had led to rather large abundance of boredom, and a certain amount of frustration.

I want to go back to work, but in less than two weeks I start radiation therapy, which won’t affect my mind, but it may have a detrimental effect on my body. I suppose I could just get them to prop me up at my desk and I could still function for at least 8 hours a day. There is the small logistical nightmare of reporting for treatment every day while trying to maintain some kind of fa├žade of professionalism, but I’m sure they’d rather have me for 7 out of 8 hours rather than zero.

There’s just no telling what the radiation is going to do to me. Pamphlets and websites just don’t prepare you for the reality of these rather interesting treatments. I would hate to go back to work and then go right back out on more sick leave. On the other hand, I really don’t know how many more days I can spend in this apartment with no income or mental stimuli.

Mood: Gimme a B!